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Zack and Larry is finished

Zack and Larry Make a Porno was finished a couple days ago, and it came out better than I’d anticipated.  I was afraid it would just be, well…porn.  It certainly does have a lot more sex in it, than anything I’ve written previously.  Not terribly surprising, considering the premise.  But the characters found their own voices, with Zack being protective of Larry and concerned about what “normal” straight men were supposed to do and not do, and Larry being an outsider who manages to offend nearly everyone, but who would do anything for Zack. 

It needs polishing.  The pacing is a bit off, and the characterization can be improved, but there’s something there worth putting out, I think. 

My still-unforunately-named cyberpunk story, The Bodyguard, has been read by a couple friends and both liked it.  The main criticism, so far, has been unhappiness with the open ending.  It’s intended to imply that our heroes are now heading into an even bigger adventure.  But of course, my friends wanted to read that adventure now.  I’m beginning to think I might need to write the sequel, before submitting this one.  I’d rather not change the ending.  But it might be a good idea to have the sequel already written, so I can tell the editor that there is definitely a follow-up story — and here it is.

Of course, that means both stories may be considered together, and if the editor doesn’t like one, or doesn’t feel like publishing two stories, right now, neither will be published. 

I’ve gotten back to work on my YA fantasy novel, The Guardians Awaken, about two young men — one a street urchin; the other, nobility — caught in the middle of a human war and a simultaneous war between the gods.  I love the novel, but I’ve been stuck on the big battle scene at the end since last Fall.  Hopefully, I can get through that and finish it up.  Between that novel and my YA novel about a Viking sorceror, Seidhman, I really hope I can at least start making the rounds of YA publishers this coming year.

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Productive week, but not so much for NaNoWriMo

Well, the past ten days have been very productive, in a lot of ways, but my NaNoWriMo novel has kind of fallen by the wayside.  It’s stalled out at just over 27,000 words.  I’ll probably try to bring that up over 30,000 words before the end of November (this Tuesday), just to even it out, but hitting 50,000 words is extremely unlikely now.

Part of it was the holidays, of course.  But another part of it was that I was suddenly struck with a wave of ideas to salvage my YA near-future dystopian novel, Eastside-84.

Yes, I know.  Our subconscious just loves to do this to us, when we’re in the middle of a project:  throw great ideas for new stories at us, hoping to distract us from completing the boring story we’re currently working on.  Unfortunately for Murderous Requiem (my NaNoWriMo  novel), I’ve been wracking my brain for a way to save Eastside-84 for months now.

Like my YA novel about teen suicide, By That Sin Fell The Angels, Eastside-84 has been a disturbing novel to write.  Once again, I’m trying to cast a spotlight on our society’s treatment of adolescent sexuality, and what I’m seeing is pretty ugly.  The novel postulates a near future in which the technology exists to repress the sexual development of teenagers, basically keeping them in a sort of stasis (called Extended Childhood, in the novel) until they reach the age of twenty-one.  The process is then “unlocked,” and they “catch up” to their actual sexual maturity level in a short period of time.

What’s made this book so difficult is that the people who have read parts of it (it’s about halfway done, theoretically) just haven’t been “getting” it.

The first question they ask is, “Given the possibility of implementing this, why would society do this to children?”  The answer to that, I think, can be found in our current obsession with keeping children innocent.  A family in the midwest, in recent years, had their two daughters taken away by the state for a year, because they took what they believed to be cute photographs of the girls — then about three and five years old — playing in the bathtub.  (My own parents had photos of my brother and I like this, at about the same ages, in our family photo album.)  The store developing the photos reported them to the police.   The anti-masturbation and anti-sex education campaigns coming out of the religious right are part of a similar desire to keep children from growing up, in my opinion.  (There’s more to it than that — a desire to regulate sexual activity, in general — but that’s a big part of it.)  And parents and our society seem geniunely frightened of teenagers these days, as if the mere fact that you’re in your teens makes you a criminal.  There are numerous examples of businesses putting up anti-teen devices to drive them away, as if they’re some kind of vermin.

The second question I get is, “How did this come about?”  It was my initial premise that, by the time the story takes place, this technology would be nearly universal in the United States.  But it’s really radical and liable to upset a lot of people.  Even extrapolating on the disturbing resurgeance of religious conservatism in the recent election, it’s hard to imagine everyone in the country going along with a radical idea like this.  And there were other events in the novel that simply seemed improbable, or if they did occur, it seemed unlikely that the national response would be quite what I’d predicted.

The third question I get is, “Why would your main character act so young?  Even if it’s possible that his sexual development has been repressed, he would have learned something about anatomy and sex from observation.”  My response to that is, clearly I haven’t written it well enough.  The entire idea is that, if we can successfully prevent children from growing up sexually, they won’t grow up mentally, either.  What’s necessary is for me to make it clearer that Paul, my main character, has no access to the information sources we take for granted these days.  Society has been successful in preventing him from learning about sexuality.

On the other hand, there is an underlying them in the novel similar to Michael Crichten’s “Nature finds a way.” in Jurassic Park.  These kids do start to experience sexual feelings, despite the best efforts of the insane adults trying to repress their natural development.  But then that leads to one of the more disturbing aspects of the novel:  how do you portray this without getting really creepy?  Remember, their bodies still look about twelve years old.  Any sexual exploration between these characters has to be extremely tame, and even then, it’s likely to be disturbing to most readers.

But Eastside-84 has continued to haunt me, even when it seemed that it just wasn’t going to work.  Not all of my writing is supposed to be “important.”  Quite a lot of it is simply supposed to entertain.  My two recently pubished works are a good example of this.  How socially relevant can a Christmas Regency be, after all?  (No offense intended to other authors of Christmas Regencies.)  But a few of my books seem to have something to say, and Eastside-84 is one of them.

The new ideas I came up with this week have gotten me past a number of the concerns voiced by my readers — concerns, I would like to point out, that I considered to be absolutely correct.  Even if they seemed to have missed the point, at times, that was not the fault of my readers, but due to the story not being coherent.  I think the new ideas will tighten up the story and make it much more understandable.

But alas for my NaNo novel.  I do intend to finish it, as I think Dreamspinner Press might go for it.  But it will have to wait.

In the meantime, I’ve also been working on a piece of music for my brother — the main theme for his 50s-style sci-fi film, The Atomic Attack of the Son of the Seaweed Creature!  I promised it to him over a year ago, but between buying a house, getting a dog, getting married and getting published for the first time, my music and film projects have fallen by the wayside.  It’s time to pick those up and get them under control.  My main issue with Atomic Attack has been the inclusion of a software theremin in the theme.  It sounds terrific, but it’s a bitch to use.  It took two days to get a decent recording of the main motif, and I’m still mixing it in.  But I hope to be finished with that later today.

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Getting mired in religious argument again

It’s amazing how quickly my novel By That Sin Fell the Angels has started pushing my buttons again.  It really isn’t easy writing from the perspective of a character that would like to see me — the author — imprisoned or institutionalized to keep me from “corrupting” young people (by telling them it’s okay to be gay).  I’m rapidly approaching the end of the novel.  Just two more sections from the minister’s perspective, until I get to the final confrontation between him and the teacher.

He needs to realize that his position is too narrow; that he’s holding up an impossible standard for young people to achieve and it’s hurting those he cares about and wants to protect.   But how to get him to come around? 

I’m the writer.  I can do anything I want, theoretically.  But if it isn’t believable, I’ll lose the reader.  And I’ve seen that done so often.  Especially in movies and television where, frankly, the big studios never seem to put much thought into what they’re pumping out, still people are trying to figure out which country has the most titles on netflix to watch this movies.  Over and over again, I’ve seen good stories ruined by a sudden, implausible change of attitude in the antagonist — triggered by something that would almost never cause a person to change their attitude in real life.  A cute little child saying something unintentionally astute (with an “adorable” lisp).  A diary entry revealing something the character never knew about someone he loved and/or admired.  (Actually, I have to confess that I’m using that one — god help me.  I’m just trying to make it not the entire reason for the transformation.)  Santa giving him the toy he always wanted for Christmas, when he was a kid.  (A recent Hallmark movie turned this into a joke by having the villain respond, “I always wanted that…when I was five.  Get real!”)

The story’s theme is that love often trumps belief — that most people, when confronted by someone they love who doesn’t fit the belief system they adhere to, will adjust their beliefs to accomodate that person.  Conservative parents will learn to accept their hippie children.  A strict religious father will learn to cope with his gay son.  And a staunch liberal will learn to adjust to his conservative spouse.  Not always.  Not often enough.  But often.  And in this story, that’s what’s going to happen.  I simply don’t want to take a shortcut and make Isaac’s revelation come to him easily.  I also don’t want him to do a complete about-face and start advocating for gay rights.  But there has to be a way to bring him around, so that he can at least learn to cope with gay men and women.

And that also has to involve a certain amount of biblical argument.  He’s built an armor around himself of biblical passages.  And ultimately it will have to be these same passages that show him the chink in that armor.  And any readers who are interested in a story about a Christian boy struggling with his sexuality probably know all the more common arguments and counter-arguments.  There are some that show a little promise, but I haven’t found anything that would persuade a character like Isaac yet. 

Which means I have a lot more digging to do.

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I hate writing villains

By That Sin Fell The Angels may be the first story I’ve written which really gets into the head of the villain.  Usually, I restrict the viewpoint to the main character or the main character and his love interest (the secondary character).  The antagonist, if there is one, is usually observed by these characters, but we don’t actually experience his or her thoughts. 

In this novel, however, the story is being told from the point of view of Terry, a closetted music teacher at the High School; Jonah, a gay student; and the Reverend Isaac Thompson.  Isaac is the direct antagonist of Terry and indirectly affects Jonah, through the guidance he gives Jonah’s mother.  He’s an extremely difficult character for me to write, for three reasons.

Firstly, his viewpoint is pretty far removed from my own.  He’s a fundamentalist Christian who sees sin in everyone and feels that this needs to be confronted head on.  Compromise merely leads to sinners continuing to sin, and ultimately being damned to Hell.  Therefore, he rejects all of the things that I personally think are essential in a community of people with diverse beliefs — attempting to find common ground, accepting that there is more than one way of viewing things, being open to compromise.  Isaac does legitimately want to help people, but he goes about it in a way I could never condone.  I do have a dogmatic streak in me that often manifests itself in arguments about certain subjects (translations of Icelandic Sagas, for instance), so I can tap into that, but Isaac’s narrow-minded view of things often makes me want to hit him.

Secondly, he keeps wanting to be a parody.  The attitudes and views he represents are often repugnant to me and the temptation to portray him as Bigotted Bible-Thumping Preacher #5 from a catalogue of movie and television cliches is strong.  I think there’s a natural tendency for us to lampoon our enemies, and this character represents people I do consider to be the enemy — people who are bound and determined to interfere in my life and make sure I can’t live peacefully and happily in the manner I choose.  People who’s ignorance and hatred of those who differ from themselves leads teenagers to take their own lives in despair.  So I’ve been struggling to make the man intelligent and present his arguments in a logical fashion.  And I’ve used the grief he’s experienced over the loss of his family to explain in as sympathetic a manner as possible, why he is the way he is.

Thirdly, he doesn’t like the other characters.  This is particularly tough for me, because I’m a sap.  I love happy endings.  I love silly romantic movies and I cry when the main character realizes there really is a Santa Claus, even though everyone knows there really isn’t — especially the filmmakers who are pocketing the money I paid for a DVD of their hackneyed factory-produced crap…

Uh…where was I?  Oh, yeah.  One of my biggest problems, when I’m writing a story, is that I want everyone to fall in love with each other.  I want the story to end with one big puppy pile of people hugging and kissing each other, all wrongs forgiven and all malice forgotten.  Because of this, I frequently discover that a story has lost momentum, because I had the characters sit down and talk like reasonable human beings and iron out all the major conflicts between them.  With nothing left to fight about, there isn’t much of a story left.  I then have to go back and unravel all of that communion and empathy, so they can go back to hating each other for a bit longer.

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“By That Sin Fell the Angels”

While waiting for NaNoWriMo to begin in November, I’ve been attempting to finish up a YA novel I put aside last July called “By That Sin Fell the Angels” (a quote from Shakespeare’s Henry VIII).  It’s a difficult one for me to write, since it involves teen suicide and young people struggling with the fundamentalist Christian attitudes they’ve been raised with. 

I spent some time in this type of environment as a teenager and, frankly, it led to me contemplate suicide, if not actually attempt it.  I have journal entries from that time in which I kept analyzing my dreams and reactions to other boys and girls, looking for hints that I was outgrowing my homosexual tendencies.  I would celebrate any sign that I might be growing attracted to girls, despair about erotic dreams I was having about boys, and try to rationalize my feelings.  I prayed constantly to be cured.  But eventually I had to acknowledge that my sexuality was not going to go away.  It was part of me and I had to learn to live with it.  Unfortunately, I was so deeply ensconced in the literal interpretation of the Bible that it was impossible for me to find acceptance of myself as a gay man in those pages.  Eventually, I turned away from Christianity.

It’s hard, delving back into the bigottry of fundamentalist churches such as Assembly of God (which used to be my church).  This is why I put the novel aside this summer.  It was painful and unpleasant.  Every night, after writing, I had to remind myself that this was no longer my life and I could leave it behind on my computer.  I had a wonderful fiance and a house and my life was good.

I decided I needed a break from it, even though the writing itself was going well.  And that was probably best for my mental state.  But at the beginning of this month, I grew curious about what I’d written so far.  So I read it.  And it was good!  Strange, a bit surreal and disturbing, perhaps, but engrossing.  And it needed an ending.  So I began working on it again.

To my surprise, the relentlessly dismal tone of the novel took a significant turn for the better at the climax of the story.  Suddenly, these characters who seemed bent on their own destruction were finding ways to resolve their issues.  And I realized that, of course, this is how it has to be, if teens reading it someday are to take away any hope from it.  A character stated at one point in the novel, way back in July, “When push comes to shove, love usually trumps belief.”  I realized when I wrote that, that it might end up being what the novel was trying to “say.”  And now I know that it is.  Perhaps that isn’t always the case in real life, but often it is.  And it should be.  Always.

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